ashlyn [pcs]

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I... I don't know what I would even say.

[he doesn't Not want to, but.]

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Yeah. I never know what to write in any of my letters.

[ she was just desperately trying to think of something that might be comforting to him. ]

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It's difficult to think of what to send...

[even for a writer like him.

after a second, he reaches over to take one of her hands.]

-I don't... want to have to do this tomorrow.

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[ she just lets him do that. i wish she were one of my nicer characters who would tell him he can take it easy for once but... ]

You have to power through it.

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I know.

[a little flicker of something blips through the emotional deadzone. exhaustion, resignation, guilt.]

...I will.

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Hopefully it won't get as chaotic as it usually does. One of the mysteries is kind of already solved.

[ kate... ]

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I-it is...?

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Well... Kate went after Scien. We know that much.

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Kate...?

[her?

no. no.]

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[ just... extremely tired emotions. ] ... We just have to find someone else to vote for.

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Do we?

[it should be at least partially up to her, shouldn't it.]

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Well. We don't have to.

But I doubt many people want to put her through Sunday's ritual. Most people will probably want to find someone else to take that on.

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...probably. Depending on... who else it turns out to be.

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Kate's the youngest person here. You really think it's going to matter who else we catch?

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Maybe.

[depending on who they are, if they have a partner- who the partner is. you never know.]

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I wouldn't count on it changing anyone's mind. But we'll see.

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R-right. We will.

[...]

Ashlyn, did you... were you going to try to stay? Until the end?

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I have to. I have to keep you safe, don't I?

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You don't have to.

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[ hmmm Bad Emotions. ]

... But...

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I know... that we're partners. And I want to keep you safe too, if you want to stay for yourself.

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[ she curls in on herself a bit and doesn't say anything. but she's scared and worried and hurt and protective and angry and every other bad feeling too, probably. ]

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Ashlyn-

[he starts, but he realizes he doesn't... know what to say in this situation. his own emotions pick up a bit more-- a little more of that touch of guilt, self-consciousness.]

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[ it's fine. she's bad at providing comfort and as a consequence never really expects it from anyone else, either.

she takes a second. breathes. her emotiona regulate a little and dull, all still there, but quieter. ]

... It's not really going to be up to me anyway.

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...you're my partner. If I can't be honest with you, then who am I supposed to say anything to-?

[he says first, shaking his head, winding a lock of his hair around his fingers.]

It isn't-- entirely up to me either. But I don't... I don't know if I... want to keep just watching everyone else leave.