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...hello.

[he takes a seat next to him, exhaling a slow breath.]

I'm sorry to have put that on you, but with Robin... I didn't want to cause any confusion.

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[he shakes his head]

No -- I appreciate it. I care about Robin, but... I'd rather focus on Yuu if he was acting strange too, y'know?

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I thought that you would.

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There's... no other explanation, is there...?

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[at that he sighs, running a hand through his hair]

...I think I know the reason why, but we're planning to wait until tomorrow to make sure. I'll let you know then if something comes up.

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That's not exactly a direct answer.

[not one he's confident in the clarity of, anyway.]

Then, what happened-?

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The week when we were seeing each other's memories -- did you see Kanda's too?

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[his expression speaks for him-- pained, sad, empathetic.]

I- saw too much, I think.

[by kanda's standards, for sure.]

His history is why I needed to ask you, before I said anything.

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[by kanda's standards 'too much' could simply be anything, but. Lavi silently takes in the expression on Mathis's face,]

So you know that he was created by the Order?

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Yes. He knows about me, as well.

[when memshare is just 'surprise you're both like this actually']

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[me sitting on their common lore vibrating and hoping u'd both memshare it to each other]

...They gave him the ability to regenerate. I've been fighting by his side for three years, and I've seen him get up and walk from fatal blows -- attacks that would have killed anyone else.

Thing is, all that healing still comes from his life force. And when we talked about what happened back home -- he said there was an attack, so he doesn't heal as fast anymore. He can get hangovers now and he gets tired more easily. 'Course, he doesn't heal faster than normal here, but... I think whatever's suppressing our abilities -- it's not stopping the rest -- the consequences.

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...so you think that it's because of- his injuries? His body attempting to pull from it, but failing to repair anything?

[mmm. he's thinking about that.]

I'll... ask the overseers a few things. Reasonably, I should already be dead from my body's instability, but maybe they'll be able to tell me more about exactly why I'm not. Whether something like those consequences not being suppressed could be the case for Kanda.

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He's had a few injuries, and he hasn't been in the swamp for them. So I thought maybe that's where the hair came from. Either way, I'll have to check on him tomorrow to see if he has any more.

If there aren't any, then I'll ask the Masks about it too. I told Yuu about it, so he's aware that something's going on with him.

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I'm going to keep it to myself, for the most part. I don't think that he needs too many people watching him too closely, so if they didn't already think something was off from our conversation...

[then it can stay that way.]

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Will you tell Karlach?

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...is this a request not to?

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[he looks away for a moment, then]

Can you wait until Sunday? Until I talk to the Masks and Caelus too.

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All right.

[the things he does for lavi]

I do usually speak with Monsieur Gale, but... I trust his ability to be discreet.

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It's not that I don't trust Gale or Karlach.

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But if Yuu's influenced by a monster, then we decided a while ago that I would kill him. Ritual or not.

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...I think that they'd understand, Lavi.

I won't tell her, but I do think you could trust them not to get between the two of you.

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They might not, or they might try and convince me not to. Preserve our numbers, right? And honestly, I think they're right. If it was anyone else, then I wouldn't want them to die like Camille.

...But not Yuu. If there's no guaranteed solution, then there's no other way.

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...he doesn't seem like... the kind of person who would want that. I think I would be a little surprised if he wasn't angry with us for not doing it sooner, if he really is possessed.

[he really does not think kanda seems like the type to appreciate being given more time to live, if living comes after something else took control and forced his hand. especially after what he saw.]

I hope that he isn't. I don't want to see him go, I don't, but if it's the only way...

Then I won't interfere either.

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[Lavi smiles at that, even though nothing about this situation is happy or deserves one, but maybe that's his go-to, when he doesn't know what else to do.]

Thanks.

[he thinks briefly of saying that it's the same for him, if his and kanda's positions are reversed.... but well, that hasn't happened yet, and maybe it never will.]

...And thanks for listening, Mathis.

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I should be thanking you for telling me...

[lavi!!!

and, well. he doesn't say it, but mathis has the thought, so.]

...is that mutual, for both of you?

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[well. if he's going to ask. lavi thinks for a moment, then]

...Yeah.

But if we don't find any other monsters during the trial -- or if those monsters are killed before time's up, then I asked him to let me live so people can vote for me instead.

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You should say things like that a little more easily... otherwise I might have tried to save you, if it happened.

['might', he says, as if mathis wouldn't plead with him not to kill another person he cares for right in front of him if he were unaware that was agreed on. how high can the counter go this game WE'RE GONNA LEARN.]