rondo [pcs]

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[flameguard]

I feel like I learned a lot!

[ a beat. ] ...Maybe more than I needed to, in some regards. [ christ. ] You did really well, though, Mathis! I was really impressed. What'd you like listening to?

[cumulative]

...a little of everything, I think. Even if I'd have preferred not hearing some of it.

[flameguard]

Hah. I get what you mean.

[ cute... ]

... I really enjoy our Wednesdays. It's always nice when we all get together in a warmer occasion, isn't it? Sometimes they end poorly, but... for the most part, it's so nice to see everyone getting along.

[cumulative]

So do I.

[...]

I wish that we'd leave each other alone a little more when we get together... but at least the curses yesterday seemed harmless.

[flameguard]

[ poor gale ]

Yes. I... think it would be quite nice if people would stop cursing each other altogether. I'm not sure why anyone does. [ that's because you are a lawful good rondo ] Or... at least stop piling them onto the same people, if they absolutely must...

[cumulative]

Even if Lavi doesn't mind it, it was still a little much...

[our LAVI.]

[flameguard]

It's not very nice that people bully him.

[ bulliable.... ] Mr. Gale has been a target often, as well.

[cumulative]

He has, hasn't he...

I've been left alone since the other week. I think they must have been worried about it, after what happened between me and Monsieur Gale.

[flameguard]

Well... good - I'm glad. [ i sisi hope you get curses more but i cannot provide them for you so im prayin ]

It was pretty concerning... I don't think people always realize that their actions can have consequences.

Last week was the first and only time for me as well, and I don't think the person meant any harm by it, though it was poorly timed... [ being a snake when ishtar died. bad. ] I'd rather it be me than you, if it must be someone. Or me over Lavi or Mr. Gale.

[cumulative]

I'd rather it were me over either of them, too.

[though-- well.]

But I'd really rather not have anyone using the hate or love curses at all. Changing someone's feelings like that is different.

[flameguard]

I agree.

[ like, immediately ]

I find those to be the worst of them all - someone's heart is their heart, and feelings are something precious to be treasured, no matter what they are.

[cumulative]

They are. And his feelings should stay his own, not-- forced on him.

[flameguard]

[ quiet, for a moment, and then... ]

...Lavi, huh?

[cumulative]

Yes-?

[he was talking about lavi yeah why do you look thoughtful rondo]

[flameguard]

...You said 'him' and 'his' - we weren't really talking about anyone specific, anymore.

[ at least as far as he could tell?? COULD BE WRONG but also. also he has eyes... ]

...Do... And - um, if this is intrusive, feel free to tell me not to ask, but... you two are quite close, right? Do you...?

[cumulative]

...love him?

[sighs in alpha week because he has no problem talking about it aaaa.]

Yes.

[flameguard]

[ !!!! ]

Oh! [ STRONG FEELINGS... THE L WORD... he looks a little surprised, but not in a bad way. ] ... I see... passionate feelings indeed. Does... is he aware?

[cumulative]

[he's an otome boy he only knows how to have strong feelings.]

I told him the other day. There isn't... anything between us, but he knows.

[flameguard]

[ relatable ]

I see... [ ah. what he said about confession - mathis' reaction to it, too. he smiles a little bit, sympathetic, maybe even empathetic, and reaches over to find his hand and give it a little squeeze. ] And... you two are still alright? Nothing has changed?

[cumulative]

We're all right.

[he smiles slightly in turn, squeezes rondo's hand back.]

He... just isn't the type who's able to accept those sorts of feelings. That's all.

[flameguard]

Haha... I definitely know how that feels.

[ god doesn't he. but he covers their hands with his other one, reassuring. ] Do... you want to talk about it? We don't have to.

[cumulative]

Mm... there are things that I can't talk about without saying too much about him.

[so, not that he's unwilling, but some of the feelings do revolve around things that he's keeping private.]

[flameguard]

Mm...I can probably guess a little. I understand.

[ so, yeah! he is a respectful and private boy. rondo nods, though, falling quiet for a long moment, and keeping a hold of mathis' hand. ]

I - well. You saw my memories. [ a little huff. ] Did you know that I fell in love with Sir Sazantos at first sight? That was nearly a decade ago.

[cumulative]

...it seemed like you did.

[he very much got that impression.]

Did that change, after what happened?

[flameguard]

Not really.

[ it's hard to imagine a life where he doesn't love sazantos. some part of him is still stuck in the nostalgia of days gone by - some part maybe always will be. it's so hard to compare the two figures: the man in the mask, and the one who saved rondo's life.

he doesn't sound upset about it or anything, though. just kind of thoughtful. ] It took me a while to understand that's what those feelings were, but... as I got older, I knew. And the more time that we spent together, the worse that it got. I used to live for hearing him call my name.

[ Rondo. the sound of it haunts his dreams, even here. ]

But... I don't think he'd never, ever, ever in a thousand years feel the same way that I did, for a lot of reasons. It never stopped me from loving him, though.