[Luckily he is not the first person who has done this so Kanda doesn't shove him off like he has cooties or anything. He just continues to be bad at people in every way.]
You just saw me the other day. [Tch!!! There's no anger or irritation in his emotions, though. Just a tiny hint of conflict underneath the purposeful muting of them.] And everyone always swarms the people who show up.
[WHICH IS LIKE understandable and mostly better than waking up alone but also not a vibe for a guy who doesn't like crowds]
[Which is true, he's restless and agitated because two months of sitting around and waiting has worn his patience thin. But also sometimes you're the last person separated from your castmate even though you were the first person to write about it and it sucks for. A lot of reasons.
But he did want Mathis here. And he's a shitty communicator but he's not so stupid that he doesn't realize how it would come off to be like "why aren't you Lavi."
But none of that matters because Kanda doesn't talk about feelings anyway!! So it's fine. Moving on.]
[The vibe is "that's okay, fair enough" even though he doesn't say it.]
We're probably building a machine to get everyone back to their worlds. We're figuring out how to spend our rocks to take care of the cult, though we haven't settled on how, yet. Kate had a list of the costs for the other things people wanted.
Mm. There's some... table. Or something. [That type of magic is kind of beyond him. He's just been quietly going stir-crazy and losing his already minimal patience as the days progress. But. It's fine.
The answer to "how have you been" is decidedly NOT fine, but dying did not make Kanda better at talking about his feelings, tragically. But with all the effects, Mathis can get a glimpse. Flickers of Lavi and Kate and a burning house, of Caelus and Marina sprawled on the floor of the clothing store after returning from their trip. Feelings of restless frustration, of resentment towards this place and everything it's put them through.]
Better than the rest of you. [Not by much, but they at least haven't had to worry about the monsters on this side, so. There's that.] ...We're alive, over here. According to the Masks.
[Not that Mathis has the same hangups about being Dead But Conscious that exorcists do, but. He feels the need to establish it.]
[his emotions are primarily just confused. they all... definitely died before, so how...?
he catches those visions, those flickers of frustration and resentment, and... well. it's mirrored, a bit. flickers of the others, of a sense of longing, frustration at being separated. self-consciousness and the sense of just-- not being enough.]
...this is all still... so strange. We have our own ways around death, but it isn't anything like this.
[Even though he doesn't like Nehan anymore. But that's not important. There's the slight sense of an emotional cringing away at we have our own ways around death because exorcists and Reliver science are very incompatible things, but that's got nothing to do with Mathis, so he doesn't mention it.
Instead, a stray thought: It's like being stuck on the Ark.]
[Oh. He blinks, because he forgot thoughtshare is a thing. But it's not personal so he doesn't mind explaining.]
Noah's Ark. We stole it from the Earl. [OKAY,] We use it to get around. Beansprout-- [wait he doesn't know who that is] --the one who controls it can make gates all over the world. It feels kind of like another dimension, like this place. There's an empty city inside, that's where all the doors are.
[It is way less bizarre than this one, though. Really it's more like a central teleportation hub but he also got trapped in there during a fight so his view of it is slightly different.]
[fascinated emotions coming from him, honestly... it sounds amazing, to him, considering being here has been his entire introduction to magic and other dimensions existing at all.]
That must be convenient to be able to travel that way-- is it strange, using gates like that?
[He's used to it now, given that he's been doing missions all over the world for years--but he gets it. He still remembers what it felt like to see the sky for the first time, after he'd broken out of the lab. It's a sight he hates, but that doesn't make its vastness any less overwhelming.]
You don't have any boats?
[He didn't think the death curse was like. Contagious? Unless Mathis just means no one travels because they all die so quickly. Or maybe it's just because they're a remote island. Lucas told him a little bit about it, but not much.]
N-no, we don't. The sea around Arpéchéle is too treacherous to sail, so we also don't receive any visitors that way...
[and, after a moment:]
It's... best for us to largely go undiscovered, though. We have restrictions on the use of Reliver technology, so that it's only used on individuals who fully consent, but if other nations knew of it... w-well, we don't really have a military presence to speak of.
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[the emotions at that are both fond and maybe faintly amused SORRY. he steps back to return to respecting kanda's personal space.]
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You just saw me the other day. [Tch!!! There's no anger or irritation in his emotions, though. Just a tiny hint of conflict underneath the purposeful muting of them.] And everyone always swarms the people who show up.
[WHICH IS LIKE understandable and mostly better than waking up alone but also not a vibe for a guy who doesn't like crowds]
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[so he can't blame him, honestly.
that hint of something conflicted gets a spark of concern, though.]
Is... everything all right?
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[Which is true, he's restless and agitated because two months of sitting around and waiting has worn his patience thin. But also sometimes you're the last person separated from your castmate even though you were the first person to write about it and it sucks for. A lot of reasons.
But he did want Mathis here. And he's a shitty communicator but he's not so stupid that he doesn't realize how it would come off to be like "why aren't you Lavi."
But none of that matters because Kanda doesn't talk about feelings anyway!! So it's fine. Moving on.]
You missed the meeting. Did they catch you up?
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[which he feels a little self conscious about, because there are more important problems than his issues, but.]
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We're probably building a machine to get everyone back to their worlds. We're figuring out how to spend our rocks to take care of the cult, though we haven't settled on how, yet. Kate had a list of the costs for the other things people wanted.
[There Mathis now you're caught up]
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[a little nod, there.]
All right. I'll ask Kate about it later, then, and finish reading everything else... but, um, how have you been?
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The answer to "how have you been" is decidedly NOT fine, but dying did not make Kanda better at talking about his feelings, tragically. But with all the effects, Mathis can get a glimpse. Flickers of Lavi and Kate and a burning house, of Caelus and Marina sprawled on the floor of the clothing store after returning from their trip. Feelings of restless frustration, of resentment towards this place and everything it's put them through.]
Better than the rest of you. [Not by much, but they at least haven't had to worry about the monsters on this side, so. There's that.] ...We're alive, over here. According to the Masks.
[Not that Mathis has the same hangups about being Dead But Conscious that exorcists do, but. He feels the need to establish it.]
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[his emotions are primarily just confused. they all... definitely died before, so how...?
he catches those visions, those flickers of frustration and resentment, and... well. it's mirrored, a bit. flickers of the others, of a sense of longing, frustration at being separated. self-consciousness and the sense of just-- not being enough.]
...this is all still... so strange. We have our own ways around death, but it isn't anything like this.
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[Even though he doesn't like Nehan anymore. But that's not important. There's the slight sense of an emotional cringing away at we have our own ways around death because exorcists and Reliver science are very incompatible things, but that's got nothing to do with Mathis, so he doesn't mention it.
Instead, a stray thought: It's like being stuck on the Ark.]
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The Ark...?
[he'll drop it if kanda doesn't want to talk about what he's been thought doxxed on, but.]
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Noah's Ark. We stole it from the Earl. [OKAY,] We use it to get around. Beansprout-- [wait he doesn't know who that is] --the one who controls it can make gates all over the world. It feels kind of like another dimension, like this place. There's an empty city inside, that's where all the doors are.
[It is way less bizarre than this one, though. Really it's more like a central teleportation hub but he also got trapped in there during a fight so his view of it is slightly different.]
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[fascinated emotions coming from him, honestly... it sounds amazing, to him, considering being here has been his entire introduction to magic and other dimensions existing at all.]
That must be convenient to be able to travel that way-- is it strange, using gates like that?
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It was at first. Trains are a lot slower. [Which he still uses since their gates are limited, but] But we've had it for a while now.
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[particularly to someone like him, who's never been able to leave his island country...]
I've often wondered how it must feel to be able to look out over the ocean, and know that you could cross it.
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You don't have any boats?
[He didn't think the death curse was like. Contagious? Unless Mathis just means no one travels because they all die so quickly. Or maybe it's just because they're a remote island. Lucas told him a little bit about it, but not much.]
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[and, after a moment:]
It's... best for us to largely go undiscovered, though. We have restrictions on the use of Reliver technology, so that it's only used on individuals who fully consent, but if other nations knew of it... w-well, we don't really have a military presence to speak of.
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Radiates bad vibes at both the thought of Reliver tech and worse vibes at the thought of it getting spread around all over the world]
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I-it... it wouldn't go well.
Hopefully, we can eliminate its use completely once the curse is cured.