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Have we... figured anything out about it-? Um, Gojo shared a little with us the other night, b-but... I didn't know that we'd been finding anything at all.

[maybe thinking about literally anything besides The Misery will help.]

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Anything about what, specifically?

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From the sounds of it, I assume it's-- what we'll have to do-?

[allomantic]

If you mean getting down to five, yes, that's still my understanding.

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Oh- I meant... the meaning of the other things they said people have been finding. I think he said that they only had a theory or two, but...

[allomantic]

I haven't heard any more on that topic since what he brought up on Thursday. But we don't tend to find new information over the weekends, do we?

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Well... no. I suppose we get clarification sometimes, but...

[a little self-conscious sort of vibe, now, going quiet while he searches for a topic.]

[allomantic]

[after a moment, awkwardly:]

It's good to ask. Just in case. You don't have to feel badly for it.

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-right. Sorry, I'm just...

The waiting period is harder than usual. I feel as if I need to do something, if I'm still here.

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...It's alright. I understand.

[and her emotions reflect that - there's a kind of empathy there.]

It was better to learn about what's going to happen sooner rather than later, but... It really does feel now like we're just biding time until we have to - make the final decision.

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Exactly. And since we have to time it carefully, there's... very little to do about it in the meantime...

[allomantic]

[a little nod, before a twinge of guilt, apologetic.]

...You probably don't want to focus on it any more than is necessary, in the meantime.

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... it's all right. We really don't have anything else to focus on.

[allomantic]

...I'm not sure if you noticed, but I'm not very good at lighthearted distractions.

[it's an attempt at a joke, even if it's dry.]

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I- I know.

[a little appreciation for it, in turn.]

That's, um... why I wanted to come speak with you. I didn't want... that kind of distraction.

[allomantic]

[a small pause.]

What did you want, instead?

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Um... well, anything else...

[a brief moment of hesitation.]

I know... some of the others would try, but I wasn't up to it.

[allomantic]

Mm.

[after a moment:]

May I ask you something sensitive? It's alright if you'd prefer not to discuss it.

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O-of course.

[he nods-- asking is always fine.]

[allomantic]

Have you decided what you want, in the end? For yourself, I mean.

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... I'm still... trying to decide. I promised that I would at least wait for our next letters, in case we received any new information.

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I-in the end, I don't know whether I have it in me to... go through with anything that would only hurt others, when they all want me to stay.

[allomantic]

That's very kind of you.

[sincere.]

But what do you want? If you didn't have to think about anyone else.

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If... if I didn't have to think of anyone else, I don't think that I would be here.

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[there's a flash of emotion before she quickly shoves it down, taking a breath.]

...I understand. [...] Maybe it isn't my place, but have you... I mean, I think if it would weigh even heavier on you, the people you care about wouldn't want that, either.

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I tried to tell them that it does.

[a little shake of his head.]

... but I don't think... I don't think that I can leave Lavi behind, either.