ashlyn [pcs]

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shitpost laterrrr

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Then-- what now.

[killies]

I don't know. I can't predict what other people are going to do.

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They might not do anything.

[killies]

[ thinks about how they just stabbed kate during trial. ]

... Sure. Maybe. What do you care?

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[another little flare of frustration.]

I- I care about you, why do you think I told you anything to begin with...?

[she's his partner and he cares about her. how she feels. he didn't want to just-- keep his mouth shut.]

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So that I'd give up because you did.

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No, so that you could live even if I didn't-!

[killies]

But you're going to live.

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[mmnnnngh

he goes quiet at that, emotions an unpleasant blend of guilt. regret. exhaustion.]

[killies]

... Like I said. This is a waste of time.

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...I guess we'll see.

[how tomorrow goes, how the weekend ends.]

I don't think that you usually do, but you haven't told anyone what your monster is this week, have you?

[killies]

No. I stopped telling people that sort of thing once we became partners.

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So did I. I just... needed to know if it was still the case.

[killies]

Don't trust me anymore?

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... you probably don't trust me.

[at least, you know, to not run off and expire.]

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I don't know.

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... I'm sorry, Ashlyn.

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"Sorry" isn't useful. Sorry doesn't keep you alive.

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If useful is what matters, then I've already been failing you.

[killies]

Not really.

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Then why is it so important to you?

[killies]

No, it's more like... "Sorry" isn't important to me...

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I meant--

[a little tinge of frustration, but. he stifles it.]

...it doesn't matter. I... I'm not going to do anything rash. I have to keep you alive, too.

[he doesn't have it in him to risk her too much, and there's not much time, on weekends.]

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[ she looks surprised to hear that and pauses for a moment. then: ]

For now.

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You said you want to live too, didn't you?