ashlyn [pcs]

[cumulative]

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[killies]

It was just more of the same.

[ but there are a lot of bad emotions about the whole thing. sadness and guilt and dissatisfaction with how things turned out. it's not as if she's numb to it. though there is also resignation. ]

[cumulative]

Then-- what now.

[killies]

I don't know. I can't predict what other people are going to do.

[cumulative]

They might not do anything.

[killies]

[ thinks about how they just stabbed kate during trial. ]

... Sure. Maybe. What do you care?

[cumulative]

[another little flare of frustration.]

I- I care about you, why do you think I told you anything to begin with...?

[she's his partner and he cares about her. how she feels. he didn't want to just-- keep his mouth shut.]

[killies]

So that I'd give up because you did.

[cumulative]

No, so that you could live even if I didn't-!

[killies]

But you're going to live.

[cumulative]

[mmnnnngh

he goes quiet at that, emotions an unpleasant blend of guilt. regret. exhaustion.]

[killies]

... Like I said. This is a waste of time.

[cumulative]

...I guess we'll see.

[how tomorrow goes, how the weekend ends.]

I don't think that you usually do, but you haven't told anyone what your monster is this week, have you?

[killies]

No. I stopped telling people that sort of thing once we became partners.

[cumulative]

So did I. I just... needed to know if it was still the case.

[killies]

Don't trust me anymore?

[cumulative]

... you probably don't trust me.

[at least, you know, to not run off and expire.]

[killies]

I don't know.

[cumulative]

... I'm sorry, Ashlyn.

[killies]

"Sorry" isn't useful. Sorry doesn't keep you alive.

[cumulative]

If useful is what matters, then I've already been failing you.

[killies]

Not really.

[cumulative]

Then why is it so important to you?

[killies]

No, it's more like... "Sorry" isn't important to me...

[cumulative]

I meant--

[a little tinge of frustration, but. he stifles it.]

...it doesn't matter. I... I'm not going to do anything rash. I have to keep you alive, too.

[he doesn't have it in him to risk her too much, and there's not much time, on weekends.]

[killies]

[ she looks surprised to hear that and pauses for a moment. then: ]

For now.