It... isn't that I'm afraid. For a while, I was... ready to die. I was going to die at home. I thought that I would, soon after we arrived here.
[he didn't expect to survive.]
And last weekend, I wanted-- I wanted to leave, so badly. It all felt so heavy. I felt as if I couldn't possibly make it, but... but everyone I spoke to wanted me to stay. They didn't want me to leave, they-- they wanted to help me, instead.
Lavi said-- he said that he wanted me to stay, a-and live, and be there with him in the end.
[...]
I couldn't... vote for myself. It felt too strange. S-so it was... Lavi, and Suguru, and Gojo. I wanted all of them to be there, too.
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cw-ish mention of ideation
[he didn't expect to survive.]
And last weekend, I wanted-- I wanted to leave, so badly. It all felt so heavy. I felt as if I couldn't possibly make it, but... but everyone I spoke to wanted me to stay. They didn't want me to leave, they-- they wanted to help me, instead.
Lavi said-- he said that he wanted me to stay, a-and live, and be there with him in the end.
[...]
I couldn't... vote for myself. It felt too strange. S-so it was... Lavi, and Suguru, and Gojo. I wanted all of them to be there, too.