Well, I... I'll need to go somewhere else, for a while, and if we return to where we were as well, then... I'll have to take supplies back with me to break out when I do go home.
My... my brother effectively had me held captive, so given that I don't know what the situation will be after a few weeks... I can't assume that I'll be able to walk out if I return.
He may not live, but if he doesn't, then I'll still need to break out of his laboratory...
... he's done... terrible things, both to me and to the people he killed to create me. When I last saw him, I thought that he would kill me, too-- that he'd gone completely mad.
[...]
But he-- he's the same person who's cared for me, and cried over me, and who dried and brushed my hair every night... for a long time, he was all I knew. Scien... says that in his timeline, my brother is atoning for what he'd done.
So if he's capable of it in that time, I want to believe... the one who I left is capable.
He lost the person he loved more than anything, and I'm... a step towards bringing her back. My memories are constructed from the memories of others, as an experiment in recreating her memory from those who knew her. Making an artificial human and constructing their personality and mind.
[ grief is so powerful, sometimes in the most terrible ways. ]
I wonder if any of this is something the person he lost would want, but whether it is or it isn't, you shouldn't be a tool. I know you already know this, but it doesn't hurt to say.
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w7, saturday
she holds out her hand to mathis when she sees him after it all. ]
Are you satisfied with everything that happened today?
[ she did see he was in love with kanda for half a second before it faded. ]
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[like getting love cursed to kanda and being briefly married??? god.
he takes her hand, though.]
Are you?
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[ time for gentle handholds. ]
We achieved the major goals, so I'm satisfied with that. We'll be safe from the cult, at least.
[ although that does remind her... ]
You said some things when we were discussing how to spend the stones. What's going to happen next for you?
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[sometimes you are truly in a SITUATION.]
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[ what kind of situation is this? she won't push it too hard, but this does sound very, very concerning. ]
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He may not live, but if he doesn't, then I'll still need to break out of his laboratory...
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this is so concerning. why is he being held prisoner? ]
Do you know where you're going to wait this out?
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Scien needs to fix me before I go anywhere, as well, o-or I won't survive anywhere else to begin with.
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[ fix... ? ]
Your headaches? Or... what Lucas called the curse?
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[he can answer her other question in a minute, but for now--]
Um, my brother isn't really... I remember him that way, and he's still... the only family that I have. But I'm-- an experiment of his. He created me.
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It must have been quite the shock when you found out. [ ... ] What do you want to happen, for you? For him?
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[...]
But he-- he's the same person who's cared for me, and cried over me, and who dried and brushed my hair every night... for a long time, he was all I knew. Scien... says that in his timeline, my brother is atoning for what he'd done.
So if he's capable of it in that time, I want to believe... the one who I left is capable.
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It is possible. [ she says that softly, but it's without hesitation. ] I don't think it will easy or be quick, but it is possible.
You'll have to find out why he's done all the things he's done, what made him lose his reason, if you don't already know.
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[he says quietly, after a moment.]
He lost the person he loved more than anything, and I'm... a step towards bringing her back. My memories are constructed from the memories of others, as an experiment in recreating her memory from those who knew her. Making an artificial human and constructing their personality and mind.
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[ grief is so powerful, sometimes in the most terrible ways. ]
I wonder if any of this is something the person he lost would want, but whether it is or it isn't, you shouldn't be a tool. I know you already know this, but it doesn't hurt to say.