[he's taking a seat with her, if she doesn't mind. his emotions are still baseline tired, underneath, but after today he at least feels-- calmer. a little more at ease.]
Oh, I've enjoyed all my conversations with him, but I didn't think his personality was.... [ one that's good for comfort. ] I know his personality type doesn't often mesh well with others.
It's an up before the downturn of the week, but maybe with it... it won't go so far down.
I don't like it at all. In fact, I wish there could be almost any other way, but... I don't think I can do anything but accept it. As much as I wish I didn't have to.
[ the undercurrent of her emotions are very conflicted. ]
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[he's taking a seat with her, if she doesn't mind. his emotions are still baseline tired, underneath, but after today he at least feels-- calmer. a little more at ease.]
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Did you have fun?
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[it's such a relief to be able to use his NAME, god.]
Did you-?
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[ there is a sense of pleasant surprise. ]
It was nice to see everyone with a lighter heart for at least tonight. Everyone dancing.... it was a lovely sight.
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[he's not surprised she's surprised.]
...it really was, though. I- I know that it's going to be... harder, from here, so...
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It's an up before the downturn of the week, but maybe with it... it won't go so far down.
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[sometimes, you are castmates with an npc and you suffer...]
...I don't know, though. I-it could still be...
[a little tremor of uncertainty and unease runs through his emotions there.]
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[ well, that does make some trial interactions make sense.... lucas, too. there's a sense of curiosity before it becomes more solemn. ]
It could still hurt so much. I know it's not nearly the same, but are any of your letters helping?
[ are they helping him cope, just a little? ]
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[this is why he's been a famine apologist, unfortunately.]
his emotions dip a bit again at her question.]
They... they have, for the most part, but... um, they've had some worrying things to say.
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[ since the likelihood of him dying is lower after nehan left... ]
What has made you worried?
[ she is keeping calm for now. ]
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[more unease, at the thought.]
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[that's the one! that's the numbers.]
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[ the undercurrent of her emotions are very conflicted. ]
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[a little shake of his head.]
If I lose my partner, I don't think that I'll be finding a new one, b-but beyond that, I haven't decided exactly what to do.
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It's all right to take a little time, to decide how you want to spread your wings.
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[every minute he spends with others is spent knowing that most of them will...]
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[ because it's all going to be painful. ]
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[after a second:]
I-I'm sorry to lower the mood... I think it was just... difficult not to think about.
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It's all right. It's not as if I'm not thinking of it either. If you have anything you want to say, sad, happy, or otherwise, I want to hear it.
You can unload any of your thoughts.
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[he takes her hand, though, holding on to it.]
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[ as long as he's talking to someone about them. ]
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At this point, we're all going to have worries and be upset by whatever will happen next. You feel strongly, but you have shown your perseverance.
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[there's something in his emotions that almost feels a little guilty.]
They're going to be upset if I don't... keep persevering, later, but I'm trying not to base any decisions solely on that.
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