mathis is curled up somewhere, sort of tucked away, and-- seems like he's kind of just spacing out at the moment? he's staring at nothing, as far as caelus can tell.]
[ the dumpster is always half full, from caelus' perspective, except for today when it might be half empty as long as everyone has these annoying tattoos.
the neck tat caelus sports at the moment says simply receptacle.
he stands by where the other curls. attempts to look at whatever he's spacing out to.
[he finally seems to come to, startling as he realizes someone else is here... he only caught the last bit of that, struggling to form a response quickly enough to try to seem at least a little like he wasn't totally zoned out.]
O-oh, um... well... the buildings would still be fine...
[ they're letting your kind out of the church these days? that's nice. placing them at the funky fashionista where caelus is looking at the fedoras with a uncertain longing. why do they feel so... right? yet so... wrong?
[ caelus stands in front of the cabinet of curiosities. he doesn't seem to be eying anything in particular, but rather taking account of what remains. the hand on his bat curls tight.
he looks up when he hears someone else, offers a smile and makes his tense hands relax. caelus doesn't want to scare mathis off. ]
Hey.
[ they're flung into darkness and then the bright of a world enshrouded in snow, far far away.
it might be a trip, following along as caelus races and climbs and leaps upon that ancient machine. time and again, he's about to lose his grip or fail to make a landing, but one of his companions has his back. so, he can't fail them.
he doesn't know why he's able to follow his own will and not the voice of the stellaron inside him. it's not fair that cocolia couldn't ward off its false promises, that she now battles on behalf of the end of her world.
she kills him. tries to. awakens, instead, a sense of preservation. caelus' end has been foretold. this isn't it.
this concludes in a daughter losing her mother, a feeling caelus will never quite understand. it hurts, anyway. bronya doesn't deserve to suffer.
not long after, it's over. they stand by a curio cabinet. hopefully, mathis isn't scared. ]
[ caelus pauses when he sees him, shuffling his feet. he's not sure mathis will appreciate his presence, but he's also not sure if mathis wants anyone's at the moment.
ultimately, he gives into the desire to be there for and with another person. mathis himself can tell him to fuck off. ]
Hey.
[ sitting next to. ]
Have you eaten anything? Marina asked me that after an execution.
[ they've wandered into the burgoswald woods together. it's not the least scary (scawwy) of places, but caelus has no reason to feel anything but confident. he can protect mathis if anything pops out from behind a bush.
unless it's a squirrel or bunny. those can live. ]
[he isn't scared; he's a little breathless, though, with the scale of it all. the huge machine, the stakes of it, that awakening to something; it's grander than anything he's personally known, and it's both impressive and intimidating.
caelus always seems so casual. mathis never would have guessed he had to deal with things like this. especially when the final result is...]
...there wasn't any other way for it to end... was there?
[ don't hate him, mathis' roommates. this isn't a poach with ill intent. ]
Why don't you stay with me in the barn for a while? Nina's usually sleeps there--she's great! And Izutsumi comes and goes as she pleases. She won't scratch you unless you hug her.
[ game canon is caelus got continually distracted trying to memorize the posters and so he knows maybe less than he should because the facts are jumbled in his smooth brain ]
Oh... keep close, anyway. We don't know what's out here, yet.
[ given the timing on... everything... caelus suspects mathis is better served by being greeted by closer buds and then having a chance to sleep somewhere with a bed.
the next day, he'll look for him. he has two smoothies.
[ shoujo bubbles. pleased emotions but also slightly embarrassed. ]
I haven't asked.
[ they are maybe about to super duper extra die. depending on the living, who post-mathis keep killing off all their women so caelus' faith is wavering. ]
I don't know about the timing. Or if he'd just agree 'cause it would make me happy. I've been working on figuring that part out for weeks.
I like him a lot. Does that bother you, as his partner?
[ emotions moving right ahead into further embarrassment territory so he has to spread the wealth. let mathis also maybe squirm in place for a hot minute. ]
I've told Iwatooshi that he's a lot purer than I am. I get jealous. I want more than holding hands. None of that would surprise him. I haven't hidden any of it.
[ YOU STEPPED INTO THIS. YOU ASKED TO TALK ABOUT THIS. ]
[he did ask for this! he did. that was fully on purpose.]
So I wanted to speak to you, as well, and ask your thoughts on it, because if that wasn't what you wanted as well, th-then I think we would have to have a slightly different conversation.
[ that's cute. caelus gives mathis a smile and it's sincere and it reaches his eyes without question. ]
I always go after what I want with everything I have, but you can't do that with people. I've been giving Iwatooshi all the time he needs to find out if I'm what he wants, too. I think I am.
[ there's the unwarranted confidence. caelus places his hand over his chest. heart region. ]
If I could make a wish, I'd wish we had more time.
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w0 monday
mathis is curled up somewhere, sort of tucked away, and-- seems like he's kind of just spacing out at the moment? he's staring at nothing, as far as caelus can tell.]
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the neck tat caelus sports at the moment says simply receptacle.
he stands by where the other curls. attempts to look at whatever he's spacing out to.
after a moment: ]
What are you thinking about?
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now that he's close by, though, caelus can probably read his own collarbone tattoo, which is currently 'the dark'.]
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[ he means the collarbone tattoo. assuming that the guy fears the dark, not that he killed it. ]
We always have the pyre, but what if it rains?
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[he finally seems to come to, startling as he realizes someone else is here... he only caught the last bit of that, struggling to form a response quickly enough to try to seem at least a little like he wasn't totally zoned out.]
O-oh, um... well... the buildings would still be fine...
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[ picking up the conversation as if he hadn't obviously startled the poor soul ]
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[aaaaaa... he looks nervous at the thought of them being so dark, though.]
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[ sorry there can only be one silver-haired twink. time for a psychic battle. ]
What's scary about the dark, anyway? You'll bump into someone?
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[he gives his head a little shake, there.]
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[ so don't worry about that part! ]
My bat doesn't glow anymore or I'd say we could use that as a backup.
w1 monday
without looking away from the hats: ]
Hey Mathis.
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[he joins caelus to look over the hats, head tilted like he's trying to figure out what the draw of these hats must be.]
Um, are you doing all right...?
[this last weekend sure was SOMETHING.]
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I'm not thinking about it much.
[ he's pushed his feelings deep, deep down where they can't bother him anymore ]
What about this one?
[ dark brown with a pale purple band. ]
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[looking it over... considering...]
Maybe a different color-? I think it could suit you better than it does...
[this one just doesn't feel Correct.]
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[ he doesn't sound put out, but rather like he believes that. if mathis says so. ]
This one's for you.
[ floppy sunhat. ]
w2 monday;
he looks up when he hears someone else, offers a smile and makes his tense hands relax. caelus doesn't want to scare mathis off. ]
Hey.
[ they're flung into darkness and then the bright of a world enshrouded in snow, far far away.
cocolia has fallen to a stellaron.
it might be a trip, following along as caelus races and climbs and leaps upon that ancient machine. time and again, he's about to lose his grip or fail to make a landing, but one of his companions has his back. so, he can't fail them.
he doesn't know why he's able to follow his own will and not the voice of the stellaron inside him. it's not fair that cocolia couldn't ward off its false promises, that she now battles on behalf of the end of her world.
she kills him. tries to. awakens, instead, a sense of preservation. caelus' end has been foretold. this isn't it.
this concludes in a daughter losing her mother, a feeling caelus will never quite understand. it hurts, anyway. bronya doesn't deserve to suffer.
not long after, it's over. they stand by a curio cabinet. hopefully, mathis isn't scared. ]
w2 sunday
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ultimately, he gives into the desire to be there for and with another person. mathis himself can tell him to fuck off. ]
Hey.
[ sitting next to. ]
Have you eaten anything? Marina asked me that after an execution.
w3 monday
[ they've wandered into the burgoswald woods together. it's not the least scary (scawwy) of places, but caelus has no reason to feel anything but confident. he can protect mathis if anything pops out from behind a bush.
unless it's a squirrel or bunny. those can live. ]
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[oh boy confidence week. he even sounds different, his voice much less hesitant.]
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[he's not telling him to fuck off! caelus may sit.]
I will, don't worry, just, um. Not now.
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[ but he doesn't. the slightest shoulder bump. a tap more than anything. ]
... It was really hard being in the barn after losing Boothill and Aventurine.
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Are you carrying a weapon around now?
[ was he always and caelus missed it? distracted by the soft vibes ]
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[his home item is a knife, you know he keeps that thang on him etc etc.]
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[after that little shoulder bump, he hesitates a moment before he lets himself lean on caelus, just a little.]
We hadn't lost anyone yet, a-and now half of us won't be there, anymore.
...I don't know whether I can sleep there like that.
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[he isn't scared; he's a little breathless, though, with the scale of it all. the huge machine, the stakes of it, that awakening to something; it's grander than anything he's personally known, and it's both impressive and intimidating.
caelus always seems so casual. mathis never would have guessed he had to deal with things like this. especially when the final result is...]
...there wasn't any other way for it to end... was there?
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Why don't you stay with me in the barn for a while? Nina's usually sleeps there--she's great! And Izutsumi comes and goes as she pleases. She won't scratch you unless you hug her.
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Oh... keep close, anyway. We don't know what's out here, yet.
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[he doesn't need protecting he is so certain of that this week!!]
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[ how dare he. but also it's kind of fun seeing alpha mathis. makes caelus want to see what he does when he's riled up ]
Even if you are right.
week 7, tuesday
the next day, he'll look for him. he has two smoothies.
where is the boy?? wandering deadtown perhaps? ]
Hey, Mathis.
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[he's somewhere!! exploring, probably.]
It's been a while.
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[ bat leaning against his shoulder, held upright. ]
I'd like to catch up.
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[sae can we make this wednesday actually so that mathis can just start this with:]
You're seeing Iwatooshi?
NOW IT'S WEDNESDAY
You mean dating, right? Does it seem like that?
[ shoujo bubbles. pleased emotions but also slightly embarrassed. ]
I haven't asked.
[ they are maybe about to super duper extra die. depending on the living, who post-mathis keep killing off all their women so caelus' faith is wavering. ]
I don't know about the timing. Or if he'd just agree 'cause it would make me happy. I've been working on figuring that part out for weeks.
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[so maybe you should? maybe you should.]
But he's a very honest person, so I think that if you were clear about not wanting him to agree only to make you happy... then he wouldn't.
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[ emotions moving right ahead into further embarrassment territory so he has to spread the wealth. let mathis also maybe squirm in place for a hot minute. ]
I've told Iwatooshi that he's a lot purer than I am. I get jealous. I want more than holding hands. None of that would surprise him. I haven't hidden any of it.
[ YOU STEPPED INTO THIS. YOU ASKED TO TALK ABOUT THIS. ]
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[he did ask for this! he did. that was fully on purpose.]
So I wanted to speak to you, as well, and ask your thoughts on it, because if that wasn't what you wanted as well, th-then I think we would have to have a slightly different conversation.
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I always go after what I want with everything I have, but you can't do that with people. I've been giving Iwatooshi all the time he needs to find out if I'm what he wants, too. I think I am.
[ there's the unwarranted confidence. caelus places his hand over his chest. heart region. ]
If I could make a wish, I'd wish we had more time.
[ caelus wants the forbidden 18 week game ]
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[a little tilt of his head; his emotions are warmer, after seeing that smile from caelus.]
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[ all of them. a scrap more time. another minute. ]
I've never dated anyone before, either, but that just means we're starting from the same place.
[ they are both complete virgins just caelus never gets put on the virgin lists because of that inhumane rizz ]
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[for all of them. just a little more. a chance for things they didn't get to have, here.]
B-but you do have to be good to him, or else I'll be very upset with you...!