[ ah... this - flusters him a little? he ducks his head, and shakes it. ]
... Well, I don't know about that. I try to be. It's something I've always wanted. [ to be strong. the very thing he's chased since that fateful day he met sazantos - something he feels like he's never actually truly achieved. ] I still have a really long way to go.
But, your words are kind, Mathis. [ a dip of his head. ] Thank you.
[ oh this is. this is a lot. rondo's first thought is confusion, and then - betrayal, that he feels alongside mathis, that awful feeling of when you thought someone you loved cared for you, when your heart breaks to find it was a lie all along. he reaches up, subconsciously, hand touching the back of his own neck.
someone created, formed of many parts. the horror of "you're my expendable guinea pig", the heartbreak mathis feels. what's more human that? what could possibly be more human than that? he thinks of someone else who reacted far worse to a similar story, and he swallows, hard, drops his hand. ]
...Mathis...
[ he's just. stunned? stunned, and heartbroken for him, almost too shocked to speak. ] How... how utterly cruel.
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... Well, I don't know about that. I try to be. It's something I've always wanted. [ to be strong. the very thing he's chased since that fateful day he met sazantos - something he feels like he's never actually truly achieved. ] I still have a really long way to go.
But, your words are kind, Mathis. [ a dip of his head. ] Thank you.
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[before he can say anything else, though...
rondo gets hit with a memory this time.
and then another one.]
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someone created, formed of many parts. the horror of "you're my expendable guinea pig", the heartbreak mathis feels. what's more human that? what could possibly be more human than that? he thinks of someone else who reacted far worse to a similar story, and he swallows, hard, drops his hand. ]
...Mathis...
[ he's just. stunned? stunned, and heartbroken for him, almost too shocked to speak. ] How... how utterly cruel.