...some of them said that they'd prefer if I were there with them, but the unsigned one this week said that I wasn't allowed... um, just differing opinions, I think, after speaking with the others.
They... they aren't able to give their opinions like they could in their letters, only make implications.
[a little shake of his head.]
Lucas and Scien would like me to be there, I know. I think Iwatooshi does, and mostly the others said it was my decision... Karma's the one who says I'm not allowed, but he won't really explain why he doesn't want me there. Or can't.
[and, after a moment:]
I think-- I think that I can't go as easily as I thought I might.
[sometimes you have a conversation and then get a bunch of letters saying ‘actually maybe u shouldn’t live’ right after,]
We’ll talk about it with each other. Maybe during the trial, if we have time. Or we can ask for a veil to be put up for an hour outside trial and execution.
At this point we all know what’s at stake, so I think it’ll be easy enough to decide.
Most of what I've heard so far is that... they can't really express their opinions right now, but I keep being told that whatever things we've heard in the letters about it are only individual opinions, so, um... the consensus seems to be that we're going to have to just decide for ourselves.
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I had an unsigned one that I'd been trying to identify a sender for, before, and another this week.
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What kind of mixed messages?
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[a little shake of his head.]
Lucas and Scien would like me to be there, I know. I think Iwatooshi does, and mostly the others said it was my decision... Karma's the one who says I'm not allowed, but he won't really explain why he doesn't want me there. Or can't.
[and, after a moment:]
I think-- I think that I can't go as easily as I thought I might.
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Because you want to stay? Or because you think there's something wrong?
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[a little shake of his head.]
...I decided that I do want to be there with you.
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It seems like the safer place to be, so I can't say I'm not tempted.
...We'll have to decide after this weekend anyway.
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[he's trying. it's not just because of lavi.]
How... how are we even going to decide something like that?
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We’ll talk about it with each other. Maybe during the trial, if we have time. Or we can ask for a veil to be put up for an hour outside trial and execution.
At this point we all know what’s at stake, so I think it’ll be easy enough to decide.
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[after a moment, a little hesitantly:]
Do you- think that you've changed your mind, Lavi?
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Most of what I've heard so far is that... they can't really express their opinions right now, but I keep being told that whatever things we've heard in the letters about it are only individual opinions, so, um... the consensus seems to be that we're going to have to just decide for ourselves.