[there's the briefest little tinge of worry at the last answer, just because-- well, it's still going to be a lot at this point, to agree to tie himself to someone, and it makes him nervous not knowing what his options are going to be. but the people he would trust the most with it are already paired.]
All that I want is... for you to try.
[that's enough for him, after what he's seen of lavi, what he knows. he knows it's hard. but it's hard for him to stay when he's asked, so isn't it fair?]
I know-- I know that everyone says it's enough to be here, but it doesn't feel very much like it. Especially considering our situation. If I try to live, then... how can I stay over anyone else if all I'm contributing is being here?
[a little shake of his head.]
I only heard vaguely about some of the notes, I had no idea we've been finding anything at all or that we had any theories until Gojo told our group in the garden the other night-- I did get one letter mentioning the numbers, but someone came to me later to tell me about it, because they thought no one else was going to.
[so it's difficult to feel like he has anything to contribute.]
I mean, I don't know if we're the ones finding anything. No one who wrote to me even mentioned the number. I only learned about that from Laudna and Yuffie's letters.
The dead can't share everything they want to. But what's obvious is that they need us to be here, so that someone can do what they can't. I think what they need is us to keep distracting the cult, keep their attention occupied so they don't start looking for where the dead are.
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All that I want is... for you to try.
[that's enough for him, after what he's seen of lavi, what he knows. he knows it's hard. but it's hard for him to stay when he's asked, so isn't it fair?]
I know-- I know that everyone says it's enough to be here, but it doesn't feel very much like it. Especially considering our situation. If I try to live, then... how can I stay over anyone else if all I'm contributing is being here?
[a little shake of his head.]
I only heard vaguely about some of the notes, I had no idea we've been finding anything at all or that we had any theories until Gojo told our group in the garden the other night-- I did get one letter mentioning the numbers, but someone came to me later to tell me about it, because they thought no one else was going to.
[so it's difficult to feel like he has anything to contribute.]
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The dead can't share everything they want to. But what's obvious is that they need us to be here, so that someone can do what they can't. I think what they need is us to keep distracting the cult, keep their attention occupied so they don't start looking for where the dead are.
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[mathis sitting there in curfew like the huh? we what? huh??]
--w-wait, is attracting attention what all of the curses are about-?!
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[lavi knows how he feels about some of the curses by now BUT THAT'S! WORSE!]