[MATHIS AND HIS UPHILL BATTLE TO GET PEOPLE TO STOP IS SO FUNNY,
Lavi does stop patting his head at that though, pulling back to look at him. He can't exactly scold him for that, because a part of him understands it.]
You don't want to hurt anyone. It's the same for me too.
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Yeah, just tired. I didn't use the swamp yet, so I'm gonna go see if I can today.
[all his cyoa wounds are out here and bleeding]
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[KANDA YOU FAILED US]
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...Sorry. I thought I could handle it. [but everything on top of the cyoa heart effect????] I'll use it today, promise.
I wanna be ready for tomorrow.
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[now i am terrified that lavi killed and this was a reason to heal up only after murder ouuugh]
I- I want to know what happened to them. Cloud and Aerith have always been kind to us, at the church, and... and then Iwatooshi dying as well...
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Lavi closes his eye and opens it,]
Cloud and Aerith were with us at the house. I don't know where Iwa was, but... we found his naginata at the gas station store.
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[oh. oh, no.
mathis wilts visibly, at that.]
...did you keep it with you?
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[which might have been foolish, but]
He wasn't doing great, so I figured he'd feel better if he had something to protect.
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[he'll end up talking to rondo anyway, he's sure.]
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Were you training with Iwa too?
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[it would just make him feel better to know it's physically There, even if iwa is dead.]
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Right. Sword spirit. [hmmm] It was still in one piece when Kate found it at the store.
Can't imagine him being separated from it while he was alive.
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[ugh, he hates this so baddd.
...]
Laudna said that some of us thought that... he might have killed last week. But I can't imagine that it's right.
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Yuu mentioned that too. He and Cloud thought it was Iwa or Karlach.
[AND NOW CLOUD IS DEAD.....]
Dunno if I can say anything about it, since I was on the poncho list too.
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I don't think that it was you, either.
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[he levers himself up so he's back to standing, taking his less oily pants out of the water]
But I'm still glad that you don't think it was me.
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[otherwise, why didn't they notice anything at all...?
and at that last bit-]
I don't want to think that it could have been, even if I know that any of us could have killed. I don't want... you to be someone that we lose.
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Thanks. I don't want you to be that someone either.
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but he doesn't object aloud, because that is still reassuring.]
I... I don't want to be. If I ever am, I'm hoping that they're... able to defeat me first.
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Lavi does stop patting his head at that though, pulling back to look at him. He can't exactly scold him for that, because a part of him understands it.]
You don't want to hurt anyone. It's the same for me too.
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It's... the hardest part of it all. Knowing that not only does someone lose their life, but the one who killed them is suffering, too.
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these words sound so familiar though. mathis does remind him a lot of allen...]
We can still do something for them. ...And the others can, if it's us.
We did it for Erin, and Vin for Nona. [...] We'll see what we can do for whoever it is this time.
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We need to find out for their sake, as well...