karlach [pcs]

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W4, WEDNESDAY

[ablazement]

[sitting at the lake with her feet in the water!! she's just chilling out here, eyes closed, head tilted back.]

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[hi. he's joining her, though he doesn't stick his feet in the water; he's just chilling next to her, for now.]

Phew...

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[a little laugh, slipping her arm around him. hello.]

You escaped your clone?

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A-after a while, yes... he gave me a little trouble.

[he leans into her without hesitation, as always.]

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That's the thing about a clone - they're you, so they know how to fuck you up.

[presses a kiss against his head.]

You hurt at all?

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No. It wasn't... like the last time.

[it was almost easier when his clone couldn't talk, though.]

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[mmmm. there's a flicker of something Angry about how he had to do that in her thoughts, but.]

Well. Good, I think. It's still rough.

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It is.

...I didn't... care much for yours.

[ablazement]

[snort.]

Yeah! I didn't like mine either. What a nasty bitch.

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You-- you know that she's wrong, don't you?

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[a beat.]

Yeah. Yeah, of course I do.

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Karlach...

[are you sure]

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[A BIG SIGH.]

I'd be stupid if I thought otherwise. So I do. [just getting tired, is all.]

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...I understand. Still, I- think that it bears repeating.

[...]

I've been getting a little bit tired, as well.

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Yeah. I think... I think everybody is.

[she tucks his hair behind his ear.]

You okay? You can talk to me about it.

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I... I will be. It's mainly that... I know others want me to live, and I do, I've never wanted to die... but the longer this goes on, the more I think of how many of us won't be there by the end.

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Yeah. I feel the same way.

[slow exhale.]

We've still got a bit, but we're really limping. Don't know how much more my heart can take.

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I- I know.

[he feels similarly.]

And... if I had to lose some of you, I...

['i don't know what i would do without them.']

[ablazement]

[silence, for a moment, and then:]

I want you to keep going, though. Even if it's hard. [...] I think every one of those people you're talking about loves you enough that they want you to keep existing however you can.

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I know that they do. But-- but I feel the same way about them.

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I know.

... I haven't got the magical fix-it words for this, I think. [it's just over and over.]

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I don't think that there are any. I... I don't have them, either.

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Well. I guess we haven't got to have them.

Sometimes just being there as long as you can is enough.

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Then, I promise I'll be here for you, a-as long as I can.

[a determined little nod, there.

comes back to edit bc i was gonna pc you but remembered we HAD A WEDNESDAY PC]

Karlach, did you- receive anything recently?

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Oh - yeah, I got... letters? Did you?