At least I know... who to ask if I want answers. He's more honest with me than the rest.
[they're all very concerned over there and that's so valid because he's struggling but. if he's going to live then he's going to try to keep himself in the loop.]
If I asked directly, they would likely answer me... but five of them wrote to me and only one mentioned that at all. They might have coordinated, but... he sounded a little hesitant to be telling me.
[so he. has a bit of a suspicion they're trying to protect his feelings.]
well, his emotions are a mess, at that. they keep telling him to live, but is that what they want for him? everyone else to die around him until they hit that number? that's almost everyone. that's...]
[ she's just trying to power through his emotions here. ]
Dying is dying, but it's still—not as bad as it could be for them, you know? They're still somewhere. They can still contact us. It's not like it's permanent.
[ things she is constantly reminding herself, but that sounds pretty callous when she says it out loud like this. ]
...that doesn't mean that we'll... see them again.
[which is the part he hasn't wanted to confront too much, really. yes, they can communicate now, but where are they-? if they've died, then how will they ever...?]
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I already wrote back to ask if five or seven would be preferable, so hopefully they can say...
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But it's worth checking. Some stuff just gets censored, but hopefully they can tell us a little more.
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[they're all very concerned over there and that's so valid because he's struggling but. if he's going to live then he's going to try to keep himself in the loop.]
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[ annoying. ]
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[so he. has a bit of a suspicion they're trying to protect his feelings.]
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[ so. she hopes that's what that is. ]
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[...]
...if it does end up needing to be lower, then what are we going to...
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If it needs to be lower, that means we're on the right path. Which... Sucks, I know. But it's true.
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well, his emotions are a mess, at that. they keep telling him to live, but is that what they want for him? everyone else to die around him until they hit that number? that's almost everyone. that's...]
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Dying is dying, but it's still—not as bad as it could be for them, you know? They're still somewhere. They can still contact us. It's not like it's permanent.
[ things she is constantly reminding herself, but that sounds pretty callous when she says it out loud like this. ]
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[which is the part he hasn't wanted to confront too much, really. yes, they can communicate now, but where are they-? if they've died, then how will they ever...?]
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[thinking about bringing dead people back is kind of a Thing with him specifically, the vibes becoming uneasy once more.]
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There's no point worrying about it for now. We just do what we have to do.
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[he has to wonder if they're going to live, or not.]
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[ in theory. ]
... I do think we'll see them again.
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[but-- there's a little fear there, too, of what it would take for that to happen.]
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In other news, did any of your letters mention rocks?
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[thinking...]
No. None of mine said anything about them.
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[the vibes are now just
??????]
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