Helping someone now will always take priority over maybe helping someone later. So I don't regret it at all. We're a team. We can't hesitate when we have a chance to help each other.
[ she can say that much very firmly!
but gets a little more stilted trying to put the rest into words because it is soooo embarrassing having EMOTIONS. can you believe this shit. ]
... But he said he wants to live. And I was just... reminded of how powerless I am to do anything about that. For a minute. But it's not a big deal. It's not like I was the only person that might help him.
... I'm... still thinking about it. I need my friends safe. But there are multiple problems going on at the same time and I feel like we're close to getting answers, so I don't want to just wish them all away.
I can understand that... then, maybe if there are any questions you absolutely need answered or problems that have to be resolved, no matter what, you could prioritize them? Then if the answers aren't ones you wanted, you'll still be all right.
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So. What are you going to use your wish for when we get out of this mess?
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[giving her a worried little look.]
Is it because of last weekend?
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[considering the tie they now have.]
If you don't want to talk about it, then we can move on, but I promise I won't think anything negative about it.
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[ she can say that much very firmly!
but gets a little more stilted trying to put the rest into words because it is soooo embarrassing having EMOTIONS. can you believe this shit. ]
... But he said he wants to live. And I was just... reminded of how powerless I am to do anything about that. For a minute. But it's not a big deal. It's not like I was the only person that might help him.
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It's so difficult to have to stand there and watch every time, and know that if it goes wrong, there's nothing that you can do.
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It just happens.
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[all of the bad things, just... happening. being unable to stop them.
and after she asked, he wonders, so-]
I'll answer you about mine, I promise, but... what will you use your wish for?
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What about you?