[ she shifts her weight a little bit, uncomfortable with the apology because she doesn't know what to do with it or what to say in response. so she just rudely practically ignores it. ]
I forced you to be my partner. It's not like we were ever a real team together because we wanted to be.
[ this is half just her being mean and half a roundabout apology from her in return. good luck. ]
...no, I agreed to be. I didn't have to confirm that Iwatooshi was my previous partner, even if you had an idea already.
If I didn't want to be partners, then I could have... I could have refused to do that. I could have died instead, or decided to try to find someone else. B-but you survived hell with me.
Monsieur Gale offered to teach me, if it were possible... and it will be, now, but I need to ask whether they need time at home to themselves first, or anything to resolve.
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[he still took it pretty hard, but. it's not like there were good answers. they still had to ask people to give up.]
But I still wanted to... to explain, and to tell you that I was sorry for... not being able to do more for you. It was hard on you, too.
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I forced you to be my partner. It's not like we were ever a real team together because we wanted to be.
[ this is half just her being mean and half a roundabout apology from her in return. good luck. ]
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If I didn't want to be partners, then I could have... I could have refused to do that. I could have died instead, or decided to try to find someone else. B-but you survived hell with me.
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... I... made a lot of that hell worse, myself.
[ sometimes you kill someone in week three and then slowly drive yourself insane over it. ]
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[sometimes you just struggle on a weekly basis and gain and lose and gain the will to live because you're too young to know how to cope.]
So-- so I suppose we're also partners in that.
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... Well.
It's over now. No more partners. And we're going home, soon.
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[a little shake of his head.]
But if you ever want to, then I -- I'd like to see you sometime, outside of... everything that's happened here.
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[ nosy. she'll circle back to the other thing. ]
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[ but good, that he's got something kind of lined up. something on the table, at least. ]
I do too. So I probably can't see anyone for a while. But maybe when things settle down.